11:35 PM - Wednesday, September 30, 2009
missed you once
missed you twice
missed you a third time?
pissed myself.
12:57 AM
12:49 AM
with my right eye tt swollen, my vision is all blurred
and yes, i must be blind to let you go.
12:37 AM
since i was thinking abt how i wanna become a teacher next time,
one teacher never fail to appear on my mind.
she is the most hilarious teacher and shouldnt try to teach sec sch.
she is ms fu,
well, why? because she came to class one day, introducing herself.
hi, im ms Fu, f-u.
haha, first mistake.
den she tried teaching us soccer, asking us to volley it into her. -.-|||
den she said i havnt learn how to play soccer yet, cant play
a teacher who told me i do not know how to play soccer yet.
i need to learn from someone who ask we all to pass in a sqaure with a length of 2m.
tts tapping the ball forward.
and when it comes to goalkeeping, im suppose to keep the ball out of a goal, the length of me. LOL
tts like shoulder length!!
now, i think im more qualified to teach den her.
11:07 PM - Monday, September 28, 2009
2:58 AM
2:49 AM
2:04 AM
OK, I CANT STOP LAUGHING WHEN I WATCHED ALL THIS VIDEOS.
2:04 AM
1:45 AM
1:33 AM
12:48 AM
ok, im bored, and hungry, im on a diet, ate i packet of nasi lemak, 3 hot dog buns, and 2 packet of noodles the whole day, yes, tanwoeiwen, i will try my best =) haha.
and my eye is still quite swollen, zzz. sian
well, wanna noe wads great foresight?
this.
haha, and im craving for ikea hot dog buns, argh, and swedish meat balls. ohman, anyone wanna join me for a trip to ikea for FOOD? hahaha
had been great talking to you.
ure not boring.
have faith in urself
and take care of ur health.
8:16 PM - Saturday, September 26, 2009
19Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.
Matthew 6:19-20 (New International Version)
4:34 AM - Friday, September 25, 2009
i guess, im off to sleep, good night
4:05 AM
ok, this is crazy, its 405am, and i dont feel like sleeping, instead im listening to oldies by westlife.
and im so in need to wake up early tmr, i guess, waking up at abt 1030am. hopefully i can do it, hahaha, cant stop but wonder about you. i feel like staying that extra hour just to text you to see how you are.
queen of my heart.
3:22 AM
well, been awhile since i've blogged
haha, crazy day today, was at home watching you are my destiny
and then i suddenly thought of a crazy idea.
rushed down to tampines, went to phiten
and yes, i spent $62 like that, its just a split second.
well, best of all, only check it out last night and decided to get it, hah
saw really weird stuff today,
noticed how many couples nowadays are actually of a different race.
well, met kelly on the bus, and while from heartland to sch, we saw someone
and yes, shocking, well, i once gave a 6.5, and now, im definitely giving her a 4, HAHAHA
well, life pretty the same lately.
im trying to fill myself with lots of stuff to do,
im really bored, there's nth much to do.
and after how i read tt abt wad love really means,
you kept coming back into my mind,
how i wish i didnt made that decision.
how i wish i can tell you right now,
i still love you
i still care about you
and i have always wish for you to be in my arms,
but still, loving you means being able to let you go.
guess, all i can do is to support you.
can never forget you.
i dont care about your past, your present or your future.
they are all wonderful to me.
if only i could let you know of my feelings for you all this time.
i've realised what i really want.
i've realised who is really on my mind.
not her, but you.
1:58 AM - Wednesday, September 23, 2009
stole this from nigel's blog, its so good i wanna share it =)
What is love NOT?
Possessiveness is not love
Jealousy is not love
Lust is not love
Fear is not love
Keeping people all to yourself is not love
Expecting something from someone is not love
Real love is unconditional. All other “forms” of love are not really love. Most parents and kids don’t love each other, most people in relationships don’t love each other, most people on the planet never experience unconditional love in their entire lives… or at least it sure looks that way.
To love someone unconditionally means that you love the person exactly as they are, exactly as they were before, and exactly as they will be in the future - because people change all the time, so if you love the person, you will love them even if they become something you disagree with. How many parents can say that about their kids? How many people can say that about their “lover”? Love is not about you or your pleasure or your amusement. It’s not about what you get out of it or what the other person can give to you. It’s not about having a trophy you can show off with and tell people “This is *MY* girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband/son/daughter/whatever”. You do not “own” anyone. It’s not about you feeling ‘proud’ to be with someone who always agrees with everything you say and do and never does anything you disagree with. Unconditional love means that the person can just live their life exactly as they choose and you will always be there for them no matter what.
So, how does unconditional love fit in with relationships and marriage and sex and all that stuff the whole world keeps going crazy over? It doesn’t, really. It doesn’t “fit” in anywhere. Relationships are like trying to put love into a box and keep it there, except love is infinitely sized, and the box is… well, there is no box large enough. And a normal, conventional marriage is quite possibly the worst possible way to show someone how much you love them.
Unconditional love is more of a spiritual thing. It’s not bound by physical things, like blood relations and the desire to procreate. It has nothing whatsoever to do with sex. Most people are in relationships because they’re horny and/or lonely, even if they genuinely think they love the other person. But if the person they “love” suddenly lost their “equipment” for whatever reason, would they still want to be with that person? Would they get jealous if the person they “love” wanted to spend time with other people as well? Relationships based on needs are not unconditional.
In order to truly understand love, you must first forget everything you have ever learned about it from society and anyone else (including what I just said). You are the only person who can tell you what love is. The only reason I’m writing all this stuff is because people always try to fit “love” in with things like dating, relationships and marriage and all that. You can’t make any sense of it if you keep doing that. You have to get rid of everything you think you know first.
source: http://www.themeaningoflove.net/
12:54 AM
well, spent the day in yuying, at least i got smth to do there and probably i'll be gg there again tmr, i just dont wish to know my results.
i wanna see them
yet im scared to see them
if only i have u by my side now,
if only ure so crazy over me
like how im going crazy over you.
if only u could just give me a chance
if only u could just give urself a chance
who would know wad might happen
if only
u talked to me
if only
u replied.
im falling crazily over you.
9:10 PM - Sunday, September 20, 2009
well, tiring day today, i dunno why but i feel very exhausted.
score was 2-2 today
crappy goal conceded,
goals tt shuldnt have been goals
one own goal and one mis communication, how great.
well, at least its only 2 goals
now, time for a speedy recovery and then
MAHJONG TONIGHT! HAHA
had been long since mahjong night so, yea,
hopefully im able to catch chelsea vs spurs
and i realised
i do miss you
12:30 AM
service was so good today,
its like a new relationship with god.
a god that never gives up.
all this time, waiting for me, giving me the chance to repent.
giving me the desire once again to know the lord.
to come unto the lord and worship him.
all this time men had been selfish, it had become
a what-god-can-do-for-us relationship, instead of what we can do for god.
even though, he held on.
and the time that god has came into my life and change it, reminding me time and time again, whats life all about. forgiving me for all the sins i have done. giving me a brand new chance.
now, the power of God's presence.
the power to change lifes
the power to achieve results nt achievable by normal means.
and this aint the end, its just the beginning.
4:27 AM - Friday, September 18, 2009
well, have already watched like 8 episodes of you are my destiny until i realise why tt girl looked so familiar. lol, haha, its yoona! and well, its certainly a nice show, if only i gt enough time to finish the show =)
well, tts abt it, felt great seeing you today, though its just a mere few sec of glimpse of you.
11:08 PM - Thursday, September 17, 2009
argh, i cant hold on much longer, well
i just wish u would talk to me =)
felt great seeing u.
and why all this starting all over again,
i thought i had everything over abt you.
12:13 AM - Wednesday, September 16, 2009
zz, why cant i just get u off my mind, its crazy, its impossible.
its weird.
i still hardly know you.
but yet u have already attracted me tt much.
i wanna tell u that ure cute.
i wanna tel u that ure pretty.
i wanna tell u that i love you.
dreams, all i have are dreams about you.
1:33 AM - Tuesday, September 15, 2009
1:18 AM
1:08 AM
ok, the holidays are really boring,
day by day, i pass it, wondering whats gonna happen,
hours i spent at home doing nth.
surfing the net, chatting on msn, playing games.
how boring can it be?
i wanna hit the towns
i wanna travel ard
i wanna eat all ard singapore.
but who am i going to do everything with?
argh it all feels so bad now.
just appear will you.
i miss you.
i wish i can have you.
a crazy dream i have.
9:52 PM - Monday, September 14, 2009
9:32 PM
well, im too lazy to blog abt kl trip, so just visit my facebook for pics, haha
and im SUPER BORED AND LAZY TO BLOG!
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
and im slowly losing interest in you
3:17 PM
11:20 PM - Friday, September 11, 2009
I'M BACK!
and im very tired,
shall blog abt the trip some other day.
5:14 AM - Wednesday, September 9, 2009
back in 3 days =)
MALAYSIA, HERE I COME!
1:30 AM
im gonna miss youand yes, u wont expect it
1:15 AM
had fun today, though im really tired, woke up early in the morning,
went to heartland, den to sengkang and back to heartland,
I FELT THE LIFE OF AN OLD MAN!
i think im prepared for old age. lol
walked heartland for many rounds, till the rest came.
went to eat den down to our shopping for all the bbq food.
went down to cheryl's place and then
ME AND JIAYU GT CHEATED!
we sat at the bus stop for quite awhile,
after which we realised, we were supposed to wait for huan da
and HUAN DA WAS ALREADY INSIDE!
so we sat there, doing nth, except talk.
haha, well, had fun sharing lots of stuff eh =)
went over to sec the sec 1 and 2s plaing basketball so we went straight to the bbq pit,
that as when we were thinking of ideas to kill time,
prepared the food and soon started bbqing =)
had lots of fun, joy and laughter.
ate lots of food,
perspire lots of perspiration.
drank lots of water.
i definitely had fun =)
and, IT TOTALLY BECAME QUIETER ONCE THE SEC 1 AND 2s LEFT!
haha, its a total different atmosphere where the more matured ppl took over!
hahaha, one by one had to leave and we eventually left at abt 9 plus 10 i think.
walked out and bused home.
=)
fun filled day,
now how i wish everyday was like this!
im trying to post pictures asap
once i receive them!
which is probably after kl trip.
LOVE YOU GUYS!
ES ALWAYS ROCK!
10:09 PM - Monday, September 7, 2009
okok, severe muscle ache, argh, im tired, im sleepy, im bored, i love you, i miss you
i've gt out of my mind, i've gt u back
hmm, i really wonder, is this gonna be it?
like u will even care
like it even matters to you
argh, crazy shyt gg round my mind
oh why oh why
i hardly noe u
i hardly see u
yet i cant stop thinking of u
cant stop dreaming
cant stop wanting to noe u more
just one chance tts all i need, nt from u but
just one chance, just to noe u
friends what i need,
but u, what i want.
1:09 AM - Sunday, September 6, 2009
today church was good, even though we were late and missed worship,
the testimonials and all were wonderful.
there is a lot of stuff in life where we missed out,
went over to the park to play dog and bone and captain's ball, with CABBAGE!
yea, certainly had fun and gt the ball rowling.
head back to church for dinner, ok, was really filling, and i wonder why, too much food, couldnt finish, and adam had to stuff almost all the remaining food into his stomach, haha
went to 304 to carry on with games, like the blanket game and stuff, had fun knowing one another more and seeing dares being done! haha
overall, it was a great day, and i certainly had fun.
and of course all this isnt possible without God's help,
for the wonderful weather and atmosphere =)
1:29 AM - Thursday, September 3, 2009
tomorrow is gonna be yet another boring day, i have to go down to ica to extend my passport and i dunno wad to do after.
10:27 PM - Wednesday, September 2, 2009
im starting to miss you
think of you.
whats going through my mind
9:22 PM
boring days
boring days
boring days
what happened to all the confidence
what happened to all the self esteem
what happened to everything
9:15 PM
shattered in an instant
i wasnt suppose to fall for u.
isnt this better?
she is impossible
9:13 PM
1:33 PM
guess, im gonna pick up a book or some dramas
1:28 PM
ok, im really bored,
this isnt how i expect my holidays to be
i practically gt nth to do, i cant even look forward to the next day since i cant even finish the day
i wan those times back
im starting to miss you
argh, those times
you've been great
i've all myself to blame for nt treasuring the times we had.
nobody would sacrifice like u
anytime, anywhere,
u gave in
i need someone like u
the places,
ikea, peninnsula, tampines, marine parade, ps, anywhere
the fun we had
the joy we shared
memories
how great they are.
all i need is a fun filled holidays
not one like this.
its such a boring life.
1:02 AM
maybe i do noe
but i just do not care
no matter what ppl say
i still think she is nice, cute and pretty
chatted with her awhile and she really seem nice
and my type?
well, who's my type.
7:28 PM - Tuesday, September 1, 2009
well, i certainly felt happy =)
5:08 PM
first i didnt dare
den i did
it was heart throbbing
calm down, calm down!
12:14 AM
well, im kinda sick from everyone saying how u wont fall for me
maybe i already do noe that but then i cant stop myself from loving u eh..
u stole the limelight,
each time i saw u, i forgot my surroundings
all i have in focus was you.
oh pretty.
even though i only saw u for that short while, i was satisfied, nth more than i wished
oh, i wanna see u again