HEY YEH. I'm varian. Currently not studying, is ONLY 18 this year.
I'm crazy, whacky wild and hopes to experience more fun =)
E I G H T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am 19 years old, so here are 19 interesting about ME =)
ONE my name is VARIAN ANG MING JIE TWO first seen the world on the 8th march 1991 THREE crazy, fun and wild FOUR isnt that fat nor that thin FIVE could shop the world if given a chance SIX is currently enrolled into NANYANG POLYTECHNIC SEVEN supporting CHELSEA FOOTBALL CLUB EIGHT loves soccer as well as other sports NINE is a non-swimmer TEN is single ELEVEN loves food =) TWELVE is always interested in business THIRTEEN cant believe that i use to be in chinese orchestra FOURTEEN cant wait to get older FIFTEEN cant believe that there are two more random facts SIXTEEN was eighteen last year =) SEVENTEENis gonna wait for 7 yearsr EIGHTEENcant really decide for life NINETEENim in engineering
W I S H L I S T
upon a star
more bags and cash and nike vapour( blue, green, lime green) so far
saw something damm funny on kbs world, wanted to tell someone abt it, scrolled through msn, realised, i gt nobody to talk to -.- so blogger, here i am telling you.
2am was having a photo shoot, Seulong took a photo and the photographer commented, cant see ur eyes, den he replied, my eyes are always small, what to do?
11:46 PM - Tuesday, March 30, 2010
wow, so many ppl asking me nowadays to play for them, but then, i just cant seem to say yes, i dont really noe where my standards are, and im afraid that because of me, i bring the team down. well, and also, it been awhile since i played, im really hoping to get back into form. argh, i dunno wad to do, wanna play yet dont dare to.
11:09 PM
1:41 AM
11:52 PM - Monday, March 29, 2010
now and then, when i come across your picture, i realised how stupid i was, how complacent i was.
if only i treasured u more, if only i cared about u more, if only it was lesser me and more u, it was a valuable lesson but its not worth learning from, i rather have u den lose u. u were really great, i was the one tt screwed up tt time. i miss those time, i love those time, if only u could come back.
you are really pretty and cute. i kinda miss you.
9:40 PM
9:14 PM
9:03 PM
Oetoriya (x4)
Bwabwa nareul bwabwa ttokbaro nae du nuneul bwa Geobwa imi neoneun ddan goseul bogo isseo Check it one two three sigyebaneulman chyeoda boneun gae Mal an haedo dareun saram saenggingeol ara
(Rap) Yojeum neon na anin dareun saramgwa mannami jatdeora Ijeneun meonjeo jeonhwado geolji andeora Narang isseul ttaeneun haruga 1chorado neon Nae apeseo yojeum haneulman bodeora Oh~ I know your mind imi neowa naui geori Meoreojin geurigo beoreojin namboda motan uri sai
Oh baby Oetoriya oetoriya Ddaribiriddaradu Oetoriya oetoriya Ddaribiriddaradu Oetoriya oetoriya Sarange seulpeohago Sarange nunmuljitneun oetori Sad (x6) tonight Gaseumi apa Oh no no no no no body knows Mam molla One two three four five six seven night Su manheun bameul Seumyeo nareul dallaego isseo
Check it one two three ne mareul doesaegyeo bwado irijeori dulleodaeneun geojitmariya
(Repeat)
Sarangi gane sarangi ddeonane Han sarameul geurigo han sarangeul Naegeneun iksukhaetdeon modeun geotdeureul I bami gamyeon neol jiwoyagetji Geurae na eokjirorado neoreul jiwoyagetji nal beorin neol saenggakhamyeon geuraeyagetji (Gone Gone my love is gone)
Oetoriya oetoriya Daridiridara du Oetoriya oetoriya Ddaribiriddaradu Oetoriya oetoriya Sarange apahago Sarangeul gidarineun oetori Sad (x6) tonight Kkum igil wonhae Oh no no no no no body knows Nal molla One two three four five six seven night Su manheun bameul seumyeo nunmul heulligo isseo
3:39 PM
its better to go out alone, at least im wont be such an ass and pang seh myself.
3:21 PM
had a crazy dream,
we all went to this sch's concert.
it was late, i wanted to stay, so u left first.
awhile, i realised the rest are gone, i gt worried tt u went off with someone
and also worried for ur safety as its already 11+pm. i called u and u rejected the call, den i ran all the way behind u trying to catch up. i saw u in a distant with a grp, and one particular guy, the rest ask me not to disturb u two, and to let u two go on. of course i felt jealous at that time, i ran up and tried to break it apart.
but some how u didnt wan to talk to me, i just accompanied u all the way back, he left too, in the oppositie direction, face black, like as if, i was the extra, i took a bus back, felt weird.
like as if im losing you. i woke up.
its so crazy, because, why u? why him?
why would i even feel jealous? HAHA
i think i must have been thinking too much now and then.
1:44 PM
whats for lunch? nothing!
everyone add my food away
so much for trying to save, im now spending and i get nth to eat
in the end, im paying double, how cool is tt.
TTS CALLED SAVING! UNDERSTAND!
3:13 AM - Saturday, March 27, 2010
ok im really bored, and after tt day of staying up till so late, i can hardly sleep now till its 3+
damm, training tmr and my arms are aching, argh, gt to wake up at 1230 for lunch,
nth much to do this days and basically i have been playing soccer manager and neopets! LOL
yes, thats how bored i am -.-
went back to yuying today for co, den went over to the prefectorial board to help up with the sec 2 ptc, its quite fun but REALLY TIRING not due to the ptc, but the sec 1 prefects! they can really get crazy and hyper. i ran out of energy 10 times faster den them.
went over mac for dinner with sok kuan and 2 sec 1 prefects, met sam, cianyuh and cherylene to get tau huay den over to the park to meet the rest.
and CHERYLENE TAN! my sit and reach isnt that jialat ok! no blockage or whatsoever hor!
lol -.-
ok, im really wondering what to do now. back to neopets? haha
2:00 AM - Friday, March 26, 2010
the days when we were listening and watching 1e2 dance sorry sorry,
IMMEDIATELY, this came to mind ( me and yi wei)
1:48 AM
got quite bored, saw this
no offence to all the shinee fans out there =)
i like this song too! hahaha
1:32 AM
WALAO!! listen to seoulfm, and they played run devil run, listen until so shiok suddenly change to heartbreaker by g.d, WHAT IS THIS!! they played the full song for others! -.- zzz.
5:37 PM - Thursday, March 25, 2010
2:12 AM
you always said i had no perseverance,
you always said i give up too easily.
you always said that i'm too fickle minded,
you always said its impossible to be.
you always said i stand no chance.
but i want to tell you this now,
i still love you after all those commotions
je t'aime jeune fille.
i felt so stupid to think i can move on from you,
i felt so stupid all this years.
nobody can ever replace you,
and i want nobody to.
i kept that space for you,
fill it up anytime, please.
1:22 AM
its feels like i like you still yet it doesnt
im really lost now, and i really dont feel like caring
but can i?
been too free lately
i almost lost everything
im at the verge.
and i really wish i can have u here.
but.. i dunno,
maybe all i really need is someone who really cares and listens.
if only i can say iloveyou like i used too,
go away wont u?
why do i even approached u at first.
if only u didnt reply, then this wouldnt have happened.
im lost
damm
12:28 AM
i skipped dinner, i went to the gym, burn fats on the bike, work out, build muscles
AND LOST 4KG =)
WONDERFUL! EXCELLENT, WELL DONE =)
11:20 PM - Wednesday, March 24, 2010
woke up at 130, went to prepare, headed out at 145.
took 81 to tampines, walked over to blk 201 to have char kway teow,
it was good, a little sweet but not as dry as wad the forum says,
its quite value for money too, lots of cockles abt 8-10 of them, lots of noodles, very filling
all for ONLY $2.80!!
walked around abit and decided to have pearl milk tea.
the milk tea was only $1, was thirsty so i just got it anyway,
the pearl was chewy though, but gt too lazy to chew.
took 59, 15 stops, alighted at changi village blk 5, walked around searching for the stall,
Blk 4 Changi Village Road #01-2082, it's near cheers, it was a pau and dim sum stall from jb,
the price are quite reasonable, the paus are mostly 80 cents each, and 2 for $1.50, wanted to try the jumbo meat pau which cost $3, but i was too full, so instead, i got a small meat pau and char siew pau at$1.50, it taste quite good, the skin was thick, and the char siew was really sweet. was quite worth it, sadly, didnt had room for the dim sum, they were ard $2-$3, shall head there something soon to try, went over cheers a few stalls down and got vitamilk at 90 cents! =)
by then, i was really full, so i took 109 out of the place, went over to sengkang, den to kovan for tau huay, but then, i really had no room for any more food, so no tau huay for me. ended at 345.
thats the end of my 1 man expedition today, had fun, passed time and definitely checked out the food. I shall do this more often!
learn from my mistakes, but it seems like, the more i try to, the more mistakes i make.
6:32 PM
i feel like giving up, if i cant get you, den i'll get nobody.
4:49 PM
i've made up my mind, it seems stupid and ridiculous but then it just wont go away.
no matter who appear, in the end, i still want to be with you.
1:54 PM
I GOT B FOR FRENCH =)
AND YES, IM STILL IN POLY =) HAHAHAHAHA
12:29 AM
im really not sure about this, but i really hope it might work out.
im that scared, yes because ure that important to me now.
3:33 AM - Monday, March 22, 2010
crazy, im not suppose to feel that way, again
1:01 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEN MEI YU! =)
P.S Dont kill me.
12:59 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE ONCE AGAIN =)
hope u had fun with all the surprises and your favourite food.
and also, hope u love the necklace and may u dance all the way to glory.
all the best for ur studies and take good care of ur health.
studys isnt everything, so dont over stress urself. =)
11:49 PM - Sunday, March 21, 2010
that smile was all i wanted to see for the past 4 years.
12:30 AM
BON ANNIVERSAIRE LI ER! =)
11:36 PM - Friday, March 19, 2010
what for i look so far out, when what im looking for is just infront of me.
11:02 PM
im falling for you not because i want you to fill the gap but because i believe u belong in that gap.
9:53 PM
well, mahjong last night, lost $5, anyway, slept all the way till abt 10 den went down to amk to meet beegeok cianyuh they all. went over to nigel's place after tt den went over to yuying, didnt go to duxton, well, nobody went, lol, except nigel and even though he went there, he was denied access due to the rain. went for dinner and back home, wow, tt's how a day is pass, ok, i seriously need to do more constructive stuff.
well, some how, im feeling more and more attracted to u, dun ask me why
just some how find u really cute and adorable.
yes u are the one, who said u are ugly, i nv onced agree to that
because, ure really pretty. and there's more to it, ure beautiful everywhere.
does this mean im falling for you?
i wonder, but i really dun mind having you.
oh, how am i gonna tell u all this.
im falling for you pretty
9:51 PM
well. i think its time for me to move on, it was practically a joke and i learnt my lesson from it.
all those stuff u once said, i really wonder if tts wad u meant, oh well, good bye, if i ever see u again, i'll take it as i dont know you
and why not lets start all over again, and be friends.
12:31 AM - Thursday, March 18, 2010
im back from the bbq =)
had fun.
WELL, IM SORRY ES FOR NOW BEING WITH U GUYS but well, welfare didnt really had much seniors there, so i went over to help since we have always been so close eh, its like the 2 departments are tgt wad =)
had fun cooking for welfare,
and it feels good to see the food disappearing so quickly with contented smiles on their faces
didnt had much but well, when i do? hahaha, love the garlic bread and crabstick, the chicken was good but still how many times i really eat oily chickens in bbqs, hahaha, ate 1 though, feel so satisfied, the juicy tender chicken, COOKED BY ME =)
haha, and well, i learnt something, crabmeat + butter + bbq sauce = fail.
important lesson taught by pastry chef! haha
alrights, i totally forgotten to take pics with es, how sad eh, well, i believe there is always a next time and this wont be the end of es. in our hearts, we are always EVENT SUPPORT! =)
SO CHEERS EVERYONE!
12:33 AM - Monday, March 15, 2010
till now, i still find it very contradicting
1:18 AM - Friday, March 12, 2010
ok, this sucks, like seriously
WTH? wad has the hell gone into guys nowadays.
so wad if u guys are attached, i find it stupid la
all getting angry this and that, dont the girls get their own part of life too?
walao eh, WAKE UP LA GUYS, dammit.
pissed,
its like guys are the petty ones now.
MAN UP!
1:14 AM - Thursday, March 11, 2010
i love you
and it's a blessing if you do also.
but whether or not, it doesnt matter.
1:12 AM
why should i feel sad if i cant have you
i should feel happy that you can be with someone you wish
why should i feel so discouraged if you dont reply
i should feel happy for at least i tried
why should i feel down if you were not there at all
i should feel happy for at least i know whats your answer.
i love you
but you need not.
11:53 PM - Wednesday, March 10, 2010
2:52 AM
ok you know how lazy i am now , i put my laptop 1m away, lying back, with the on screen keyboard on, clicking.
sometimes i wonder why i don't fall for you,
you're nice, sweet looking and lots of words that i can use to describe you.
who knows one day i might fall for you.
and believe yourself pls. you're not bad at all, no way near that.
ok, im getting bored.. just finish supper and im nt sleeping.. gt to meet at 9 tmr morning at serangoon mrt to proceed to bugis for job briefing. gt to start work soon and earn some cash =)
ok, im really to lazy to click or type already so bye =)
i dream of you every night.
holding your hands tight, nv letting you go .
3:35 PM - Tuesday, March 9, 2010
new age, new thinking
i really wanna give up
but each time i thought i've forgotten all about you
the next moment, you come to mind.
im lost, my heart and brain are totally thinking differently.
if you're mine, would you just come straight to me?
if not, can't you just go as far away as possible?
i need more than that distance.
3:19 AM
well, im finally 19, woke up ard noon thanks to fabian's call, was really bored, didntnoe wad to do and everyone seems busy with some stuff, so decided to stay online till abt 4+, met weihao and boonkiat in kovan, went to albert, waited for bk to get a haircut and then steph arrived, followed by junjian, went over yuying, slack abit, went up to co, saw percussion, and they were bad, hahaha, and guess wad, their performance is coming, wow, good show to watch. anyway, headed down to the zhuchao stall beside the prata there for dinner with the rest, had lots of fun and surprises =)
anyway, thanks sam, weihao, jasmine, kelly and boonkiat for those presents
thanks fabian and steph for the sweets
thanks cianyuh and cherylene for the GIGANTIC POSTER! =)
and lastly, thanks everyone for coming and making my day so enjoyable =)
3:06 AM - Sunday, March 7, 2010
word of the week: COMPOSURE!
2:55 AM
so close, HOW CAN I MISS THAT 40 POINT HOLE! WALAO
damm sad, because of one mistake, there goes my $500 nike voucher=(
it could have been a great birthday present, but well, i gt 4th, DAMM
if only i paid a little more attention, if only i had more composure,
if only i had won it.
3:10 AM - Saturday, March 6, 2010
from nigel's blog, and seriously, i didnt noticed it at first too,
what a great preparation to our 100TH YEAR ANNI!
joke of the year?
NOPE
JOKE OF THE CENTURY!
2:13 AM
all i want this BIRTHDAY is you.
well, actually, not exactly.
u see i totally dont agree with cheryl yuen on why the reason for so many thing is
o levels, and why does it mean tt after o's then things can start, AFTER O'S, THERE GONNA BE A'S AND DIP. AND DEG. AND, o, lets accept the fact, life almost NEVER ENDS!
there bound to be something else in life tts equally as important as o levels now.
and well, im nt really asking for much, but if u wan it this way, well, im gonna support u and not make a sound. but then, u noe its almost impossible to ask me to stop feeling the way i feel for you like now, heh, its a joke and an insult to me eh. my feelings for u are genuine! i cant force it to stop immdiately, and of course there are times where i feel such a need for u, missing u so badly, times when i just wish u wouldnt appear so tt i wont think of u and also time when i just wish tt, i need not need to feel jealous for.
this birthday, because of u, i dun even wan anything else,
i dun really have wishes for anything,
the only thing i wan is, a msg or wish from you.
i miss those times when we texted.
those times when we talked non stop online.
those times when i would go out early in the morning just to meet u.
wanqin, i really love you
2:00 AM
its here! =)
1:34 AM - Friday, March 5, 2010
hi, tts all i could think of and can come out of my mouth.
from a distance, all i could do is look at you, as you smile and laugh.
well, i guess its really time i should give up on you eh,
but then, all this while, i have been trying to.
i just cant bring myself to it, each time ure off my mind,
you some how appear in front of me.
i miss your smile,
your laughter.
those times when i tried so hard just to make you laugh
woke up so early just to show you i can do it.
all the time i sacrificed, just to show you that you're tt important to me
ur flag day, orientation dance practice, all those time when i woke up extremely early
just to meet you. i miss having breakfast with you,
now each time, when i go mac for breakfast, i'll leave the hashbrown till the last.
i miss walking to yuying with you
just once but it seems like forever to me,
that few minutes just semmed to last like hours.
i'll never forget the feeling, that feeling.
those times when i tried to go round speaking chinese,
getting nervous, but tried my best to figure out the words.
when i hardly collected food, i wanted to show u tt i can do it too.
i miss that day, those days.
i love you
wanqin.
just call my name and i'll be there
12:54 AM
12:53 AM
3:14 PM - Thursday, March 4, 2010
whats left and always right?
your heart
so listen to it
3:49 AM
how i wish it would never be something that is what i want, cant it be a what we want?
3:37 AM
i like you because you are that strong
i like you because you just wont give up
i like you because when you want to do better
i like you because you are you.
each time you work so hard,
i smile to myself, thinking, how much nicer can you be.
i dont care how you feel about me,
but i just want to be there, standing by,
when there are any chances of you falling,
i want to be there, not at the bottom, but by the edge,
catching you, preventing you from falling.
i want to be there to see your smile, to see your tears.
i want to be there, to get rid of your stress, and enjoy your presence.
and all i ever want you to know is
i love you and
you can definitely depend on me,
if you even need to, and want to.
i wont give up, i will show you, i want to win you over
like how you are gonna treat o levels.
you want to win it, i want to win you
you wont give up going for it, i wont give up going for you.
3:08 AM
its nearer and nearer, haha, down to 4 days, and seriously, i have no idea on wad im gonna do on tt day, dinner? lunch? where? and seriously, how much do i even have left in my bank, zz -.-
i guess, the most is, dinner in kovan =) haha, its only 19, tts all, zz. well i suppose im gg down to kovan later for supper with nigel and weihao and u noe wad, im starting to feel sleepy now, sucks, haha, tmr gonna go for training and i shall decide again if im gg to re string my racket tmr, i may be too tired. going badminton tmr =) like finally, hahaha
well, was really bored today, spent most of the day in dhoby, bought clothes and then went for lunch at just acia, we were so full till we didnt have space for ice cream, lol. went back to kovan to slack till me and bk gave up and head to yuying, haha, yes, we were tt bored, went over heartland, tried toastbox, AND IT SUCKS! their service really damm jialat la. walked abt, down to mac, watched gombak vs woodlands, lol, haha, and then went home.. been on my com all this while and how cool is this, after how long, i finally blog abt the day happenings again =)
hahaha
and cherylene, i know what you did. hahahahaha, its ur fault la.
11:50 PM - Wednesday, March 3, 2010
its was this day 2 years ago, do you still remember it?
haha, its all over but hey, its good memory eh =)
thanks for those time
11:49 PM - Tuesday, March 2, 2010
it felt great, but not the same,
but still im gonna give my all.
all the best for ur remaining tests.
im very sure you can do it.
9:56 PM
you want to know how happy i am?
that just gave me all the energy i need to stay awake for now =)
3:14 AM - Monday, March 1, 2010
Tae Yeon's birthday in 9 days, mine in 8 =)
snsd going to thailand in may, aww, i so wanna go. haha
there you are
at the back of my mind
you will never be forgotten
your smile
your laughter
kept in there forever
i love you
be it you know it or not
it may not matter to you
but its everything to me.
i really love you
and i wish u appear somewhere this birthday
all i want this birthday is just a text from you, nothing more